I just read every one of Chris's LJ entries since I have seen him. (Yeah, that's right... every one).

Since I have updated...

I have started working a new job. I work at RealtyBid International now as a Closing Administrator and I have to say... I don't really understand a lot of what I do or why I do it, but the department that I work in is supposedly the most important. Shit, I've been working there for a month now and I have no idea why. The girls I work with are the fucking best and they make it all worth going to work. We go outside to smoke cigarettes at least 4 times a day and sit outside for at least 15 minutes every time we do. Our daily smoke break topics: "I love weed" "April's husband is a cheating piece of shit" "Weed brownies" "Uncircumsized dicks" and the list goes on. I was on the phone outside one day and someone asked me what I was doing, I was sitting smoking cigarettes with my Dept manager who heard me say on the phone, "I'm outside with my boss" my manager quickly says, "DON'T CALL ME YOUR BOSS!! I'M YOUR FRIEND!" ...which is why I don't dread going to work every day.

I have taken a full fledged dive into the world of professional (part time) modeling. I had a shoot earlier this week with a nice man in Oneonta from Atlanta. He stuttered slightly and was always nervous about complimenting me, most specially when I had no clothes on. I didn't take an escort to the shoot against wishes of my co workers, but how are you supposed to do good work when you have someone who has never seen you naked making googly eyes at you the entire time you're shooting?

I got my septum pierced by a nice lady at a piercing shop in Atlanta, she soothed my thoughts by telling me that nipple piercings took the cake as far as pain goes. I told her that my nipples didn't hurt bad and she said I would be fine. I hung up side down from her table as she looked down into my nose and told me to breathe...

I have started talking to a boy.. who doesn't live here... I suppose it's good, but every day I'm uncertain.... I see him on occasion, but depending who we're around, I don't always get the attention I deserve. I'm keeping my options open...

So that's what's new in my life..
I will keep you updated with any and all new developments.

I leave you with this:
great job!

I'm not quite satisfied.




But I'm beginning to be.




...one more step toward happiness.

I had a horrible trip... nuff said.
These last few months have been pretty shitty for me, but I'm starting to notice a pattern.

Either way... here's Mister Wallace givin me lovin:

I'm so friggin miserable.

Ok, so a normal afternoon of hangin with Tyler turns into a BIG ordeal.
First off, I didn't know he had LIED to his girlfriend to hang out with me.
Second, I didn't know that she would just show up out of the blue
Third, I didn't mean to break them up.

Why the fuck are girls so crazy?
Can't friends hang out without everyone thinking they're fucking???

man... Vaginas are nutz.

I have found lately that I am not comfortable in my own skin.
Every day I wake up feeling worthless.
I have so much emotion, but no outlet.



This is why people shoot guns.

Nothing really has happened. 
I have 2 deals going, but money is really sort of starting to depress me. 
I have none.
I can't even make my own car payment this month, I don't get paid til 2 weeks after the damn thing is due, so I had to swallow my pride and ask my parents for help. It was mortifying.

After the first of next month, I should have plenty of money, but the inconsistent spurts of cash are killing me. I need an even flow. 

Other than feeling bad for myself, nothing really has happened... well.. other than Chris calling me today asking where to get a morning after pill. Probably the most random and serious/silly call I had gotten in ages. You're a good friend Chris, I don't know how many guys would call around for their "friend" to find out about that situation. I'm just glad I could help. Nothing to be embarrassed about.

I'm really feeling sick, I want to lie down, but I have an ebay auction ending in an hour and I want to see how much I got out of it.
Uh, I really don't want to work in the morning. 

Tonight was a great night.
Alan and I got to the Olive Garden to discover that there was an hour and forty minute wait for a table. We got our pager and walked to Target, when we got there I was looking at random shit when I realized there was a very annoying beep beep beep sound coming from my left. It followed me where ever I went so I looked in my purse and saw that the pager was making a horrible noise that just seemed to get louder and louder. Alan took off his sweater and stuffed it into my purse to muffle the sound but it was just as loud in my head. I looked up to notice everyone was staring at me like I was carrying a bomb. A few minutes went by and I realized the beeping had stopped. We went into Best Buy and the beeping started again. 

Alan looked at a random lady and said.. Oh don't mind the beeping, we'll be out of the store before the bomb blows. He was laughing, but the lady wasn't. She turned and whispered to someone she was with and then she turned and whispered to someone else. I was mortified, so we turned and left. 

We ran back to the Olive Garden with what we thought was fifty minutes left to wait, we entered the parking lot, and I felt a hard vibration in my purse. I opened it and we had a table!

Once seated, we were greeted by a young lady who resembled Tim Roth and was extremely enthusiastic about working there. Actually a bit overbearing. But all she got was a 5 dollar tip from me.

After eating we went to Books A Million and the door was blocked off by all kinds of skanky looking 15 year old scene kids with fried rainbow colored hair. Oddly enough, Alan and I were stared at. 

We came home to watch 3:10 to Yuma on DVD and realized how old we had grown in the past year. How different things please us now, instead of getting drunk every night and having shows and trying so hard to be cool and fit in. It's too exhausting to care so much about pleasing people who don't even care. 

I'm going to top my old lady night off with reading the last chapter of my David Sedaris book (Oh how I love the gays) and watching the first disc of Season 3 of CSI. 

I may even start this week off with a bit of shop therapy with the sister and a good early mid-life crisis.

STORY OF MY LIFE
Hi, my name is: Melissa
When I'm nervous: My chin jumps
By this time next year: I'm buying a house
Last night I: Throwed up

PART 1: YOU
Were you a planned baby?: Condom broke
Were you the first? Yes

PART 2: YOUR PERSONALITY
Do you have low self esteem?: No, just awkward
Do you get depressed about things easily?: Ehhh
Are you happy right now?: I'm ok

PART 3: APPEARANCE
Are you comfortable with the way you look?: blah
Describe your hair: fabulous

PART 4: RANDOM
Ever been kicked out of a bar?: No's
Ever been arrested?: Yes sir

PART 5: THE OUTDOORS
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: Outdoors when it's warm
Do you like walking in the rain?: On bicycles
Do you like thunderstorms?: When it's bedtime

PART 6: FOOD
Are you a vegetarian?: I LOVE MEAT!
Anything you absolutely could eat forever?: Pizza
What is your favorite dessert?: Chocolate ANYTHING

PART 7: RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE
Do you want to get married?: One day
Have you ever been in love? Too many times
Are you in a relationship? Yes

PART 8: RANDOM QUESTIONS
1. Where is your cell phone?: On my ear
5. Cheesecake? Yep.
7. Your dream last night?: Being sick 
8. Your favorite drink?: Diet Dr. Pepper and Sierra Mist
9. Car you want?: Prius
12. Your fears? Being shot in the head
14. Who are you hanging out with tonight? Alan
17. One of your wish list items? Ipod touch
18. Where did you grow up?: Montgomery, Alexander City, Gadsden
20. What are you wearing?: Big sweater
21. Tattoos?: Six
22. Ketchup?: French fries
23. Your computer? I haves 3
24. Your life?: Busy
25. Your friends?: :(
27. What are you thinking about right now?: Seester night
29. Your work?: Crazy people
30. Your summer?: Hippified
32. Your favorite color(s)?: Red and Green... sometimes pink
33. When is the last time you laughed?: A few minutes ago
34. Last time you cried?: I don't remember
36. Last text?: Brack
37. Last received call?: Alan
39. Last IM?: Ian and RJ

1. Who knows the most about you?
Alan

2. Who do you blame for your mood today?
Stupid buyers

3. Have you ever seen a dead body?
At a "fun"eral

4. What should we do with stupid people?
Bury them

5. What is making you sad right now?
Too much to do

6. What was the first thing you did this morning?
Hurried

9. Last person you went out to dinner with?
Alan and mi familia

10. Are you spoiled?
You wanna see spoiled? Look at my sister

11. Do you drink lots of water?
I try to

12. What toothpaste do you use?
Mint Zing

13. How do you vent your anger?
Replace cuss words with "poop". It makes me laugh

14. The last compliment you received?:
"You're cute"

15. What did you do last weekend?
Got tipsy and drove around

16. When was the last time you threw up?
Last night

18. What theme does your room have?
Loser

20. Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
Mommy and Daddy

21. Would you ever join the military?
NO

22. The last website you visited?
LJ duh

23. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Alan

25. Last person you went to the movies with?
Chris

26. What did/will you do for your birthday this year?
Rat Pack, Olive Garden, Wine

27. Number of layers on your bed?
4

28. Is anything alive in your room?
Probably stuff I don't know about

29. Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
Forward

30. What are you looking forward to right now?
A closing

IF YOU HAD TO:

1. If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you want it?
Back

2. If you HAD to dye your hair a color what color would it be?
Blond like it used to be

3. If you HAD to get a piercing (THAT ISN'T YOUR EARS) what would you get?
Nose

4. If you HAD to change your name, what new name would you choose?
Abigail

The "WOULD YOU?" section:

1. If you could go bungee jumping, would you?:
Yes

2. Would you move somewhere else, if you could?
Yes

3. If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?
Yes

4. If you found 10 million dollars, and it was YOURS to spend, what would you buy?
A lot of houses to fix and sell

The "LETS SAY" Questions:

1. Let's say you see a big ship sink...only 3 people have a chance to survive. The 3 people are Your Best Friend/ Your Boyfriend/Girlfriend, and a long lost friend, You can only save one, who would it be?
Hmm

3. Lets say you had to eat a live tarantula for $1,000...would you?
Maybe

4. Let's say you could star in any movie (made or in the works) what movie?
Virgin Suicides

The "OTHER STUFF" section:

1. What makes your bedroom unique?: 
Wooden walls

4. What's your favorite season of the year?
Summer

5. Do you like cheese?:
A lot

the 2007 section:

1. Have you had your birthday yet?
Yes

2. Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2007?
No

3. Are you still in the same job?
No

4. is your favorite color the same color?
I don't remember

5. Have you got the same style/colour hair?
Nope

6. Have you bought a NEW car this year?
Yes

7. What kind of car?
07 Focus

8. Have you been involved with the police this year?
Yes

9. Favorite all time drinking place for 2007?
The Apt (RIP)

10. Is your best friend still your best friend?
...

11. Gotten any tattoos/piercings?
Yes

12. Had a haircut this year?
Yes.

13. Been in a hospital this year?
Yes

14. Lost someone you cared about (not death)?
Yes

15. Been on a vacation this year?
No, unless you count Chatty

16. Been kicked out of a public place this year?
No

17. Best thing that happened this year?
Getting my real estate license
 




Wow, That was such a waste of time.

I'm actually going to sell my first house.
I can't believe it!

Thank God.
I need the money so bad...

I'm about 30,000 dollars in debt right now  :[

So I finally have my real estate license and I have a job with a company.
I am working with Summit Realty in town and it is pretty cool so far, seeing as how I have only been in the office two days and I have only met two other realtors who work there, one being the girl who hired me.

And as much as I love the office they're in on Broad Street... we're moving Sunday to a fabulous office space in the wonderfully old Printup hotel on Locust. It's beautiful really.

This career already seems lucrative as my broker has already offered a commission for finding her in-laws an investment house and my dad seems to know deal mostly in investment homes.

Hooray for not sitting lazy around the house all day.

take the time to read and giggle with disgust of China.

http://www.somethingawful.com/d/most-awful/most-awful-china.php?page=1

Chris, I know you have probably already seen this. :]

Finally, I passed my final in my Real Estate class. I just got finished scheduling my license test to become a Real Estate Licensee.

I can't believe I stopped procrastinating and actually got something done!
Hoorahs!

I feel as worthless as a penny.

I wish I could create something amazing.

Everything I touch is shit.




A friend of mine is being buried tomorrow. On his 27th birthday.
That makes me feel sad inside. Now I am afraid of airplanes.